I Wish It Was Just Allergies

I was holding onto a small thread already today. It was like a spider dangling from a web. I was Hoping that all they had to do was go in, take it out and it would all be over. Unfortunately it didn’t unfold the way I had hoped.

During school I was embraced by loving and caring friends. I couldn’t be more thankful for all of them. When school let out I was trying so hard not to let people notice the fear in my eyes. I drove home knowing my grandparents would be waiting. To be surrounded by family was the only thing that kept me calm.

When my parents came home my heart sank because I knew there was some news to be told. When my mom said that she had to have surgery it didn’t bother me too much because I expected that. However, when she said that she may possible need radiation and chemotherapy my heart split.

I didn’t want this. None of us did. We didn’t ask for this. The only thing I could think was “Why?” Why her? I became angry. “My mom didn’t do anything to deserve this! Why does this have to happen?”

I knew I couldn’t do anything about it. I’m 16. I have no magical powers. I wish everyday I could just take it all away.

As my mom was telling me goodnight she began crying. She began to apologize for making me feel sad about it all and I said, “The tears are just allergies”. “I wish it was,” was all she said. I too wish it was just allergies.

5 comments

  1. Deb says:

    Cami, I want you to know there are people all over the world in prayer for your momma and for you all. Hold onto Jesus and the people in your life who are positive and full of His hope. I wish I were there to hold her and you. Know we love you all dearly.

  2. Nana says:

    Cami my allergies are bothering me too. Seems I need alot of tissues lately more than in the past allery season. But today was good news NO cancer in the blood, bones, or liver. Then again the allergies begin to roll down my face. But it was good. I love you dearly and we can wipe each others allergies away as we need too.

  3. christie emerson says:

    I don’t think we will ever know why such bad things happen to such good people! But, we do know that God is much wiser and smarter than we are, thankfully, and that He will never give you more than you can handle! I know it seems like a lot at 16, but I know you are much stronger than you think you are! Put your trust in Him and rest assured He has a plan, and although we don’t always like it or agree with it, there is something bigger we don’t know yet! He obviously has a huge plan for your mom!! That being said, keep your head up, keep pushing forward, you got it! We are all praying for a miracle, and believe me they happen!! We love you and your family!

  4. Aunt Mo says:

    Oh Cami, my allergies are bothering me too. I can’t get my contacts in. I want you and Josh to know that I love you both very much. You both are so special to me.

  5. Jamie Naylor says:

    Cammie,
    You are a wonderful, young lady! Please know that you can count on me during guard or school, lend a listening ear, or give you a hug! Your parents are lucky to have such great kids!
    With Love,
    Mama Naylor

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