For weeks, I have been waiting, asking and seeking God for good news. It seems that every test result was worse than the time before. All that began to change this week…God has been faithful.
Today was my surgery for the lymph node biopsy and insertion of the port. We had to be at the hospital very early. And, if you know me at all, you know i’m not a morning person. One of the hardest parts for me was saying goodbye to the kids before they left for school. They both chose to attend school for their morning classes because they had obligations to those classes. And, I knew I would see them when I got out of surgery, but saying goodbye was so hard for my “mother’s heart”. Still, I didn’t fall apart emotionally…God is faithful.
We arrived at the hospital and were taken into the pre-op room. For the next two hours there was a steady stream of Adams’ Angels entering the room to show their love and support. I was so amazed and overwhelmed. I still don’t have the words to say how much your presence meant to me and how blessed you made me feel.
One of the biggest anxieties I have had was going through this surgery. Although I had 2 c-sections with the kids, I have never been put to sleep. But, I’ve prayed (even begged at some points) for peace before the surgery. And, God was faithful…I had no real anxiety this morning when I woke up or even getting my IV. But, I will admit I did accept the doctor’s offer for medication to relax.
After surgery the first faces I saw were my husband and kids. Seeing them was the greatest feeling in the world. My heart was so full of love and I just wanted to get up and hug them all. But, the best part came next. Rick asked if I had talked to the doctor and I remembered I didn’t know how many lymph nodes were taken or what the initial tests revealed. When he told me they took 2 nodes, I was a little frightened. But, when he said they showed NO CANCER I was amazed! God is faithful!
I don’t know what the pathologist will find microscopically, but I believe the God that made the tiniest parts of me will prove FAITHFUL and there will be no microscopic cancer. I don’t know if or how this will change my dosage of chemotherapy, but God is Faithful! I don’t know why I still have a large mass in my breast, but God is Faithful! I believe He has heard my cries and that He is answering in His own way, in His own time.
I believe that all of your prayers are making a difference in my life. I believe God is hearing the cry of His people. I can not thank you enough for lifting me up to the Father in Heaven and asking for a miracle. You are so vital to me and my journey; keep praying, knowing that God loves you and hears your prayers. And, just as you are praying for me and my family, I am also praying for you. I love you all!
Rejoicing and Believing!