Over the past two days I have slowly been losing my hair. It isn’t coming out in big clumps like I was afraid. So, I guess that was one answer to prayer. Although I tried to bargain with God that I would like to be one of those people that doesn’t lose their hair; God is merciful even when He answers “No”. My hair loss is more like a lot of shedding every time I shower or comb. I’m not sure how many more days I can go without buzzing it all off. That is still a strange thought, but I’m slowly coming to the acceptance it will have to be done whether I like it or not.
I’m also trying to get my mind prepared for the next round of chemo this coming week. As I look back on the first round, I see in hindsight what I didn’t see at the time I was going through it. That was probably God’s grace and mercy that I couldn’t realize what I was going through at the moment. Now I know what I’m in for and I know I need to rest much more than I did before. I also have some small experience on how to prepare beforehand and what meds to have stocked in my medicine cabinet to get me through the first week. I’m definitely not looking forward to it, but at this point I’m not dreading it either.
Continue to pray for my family. We are feeling weary and worn from the small bit of battle we have endured. We still have a long way to go and need your prayers for strength. There has been a heaviness in our house for the past week and it is emotionally draining. There is a spiritual battle being fought over my health and my family. I need your prayers to help sustain us physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. We ARE in the fight for our lives and we can’t do this alone.
I’m thankful for each of you and appreciate you more than you know. Please know that we pray for your families as you pray for ours. Much love to you all.
Fighting and believing!