I haven’t been writing lately only because I was at a loss for words. A lot has been on my mind for the past few days. I’ve been taking the time to gather all my thoughts to be able to write.
One of the hardest things to think about with my mother is her chemotherapy. As a cosmetologist, I work with hair every day. To even think about her losing her hair makes me sad. One Sunday afternoon we walked around a few stores. As we visited stores we would look at hats and scarfs for her to cover her head once she starts to lose her hair. Whenever she tried them on I wanted to cry.
I don’t want to go through this. None of us do. But I want to be there for her and help her through this.
“I’m Gonna Love You Through It” by Martina McBride is one song that I listen to. It motivates me to be the person my mom can rely on whenever she needs me.
“When you’re weak, I’ll be strong when you let go, I’ll hold on and when you need to cry I swear that I’ll be there to dry your eyes. If you feel lost and scared to death like you can’t take one more step, take my hand together we can do it. I’m gonna love you through it.When this road gets too long, I’ll be the rock you lean on. Just take my hand together we can do it. I’m gonna love you through it.”
These lyrics, simple sentences, little words, all give a feeling of hope and strength. They forever remain in you head and hold onto you like a fly in a web.
I have had an experience I will never forget. On Friday, March 9, I went to Central Cabarrus High School to perform in front of several guards and their friends and family. After we performed, my family was shown how loved we really are in our band family. They made us shirts in support of my mom. Every one in the auditorium witnessed how blessed we were and saw the love and compassion from everyone. Once my parents left, I decided to stay and watch the rest of performances scheduled that night. One lady came up to me and told me to stay strong. Those two words have been imprinted into my mind ever since, “Stay Strong.” Such simple words but a powerful meaning.
I do know that God has given me the best grandaughter that is on this earth.Your words and thoughts are the best thing any mother could ever hear.